Dear Diary,

Went to Raffles Town Club (RTC).
Brings up nostalgia.
Ooo. I can't wait for the exams
to end, then I can go swimming there!
whee....

I need to revise more.
I think at the rate I'm going,
I would fail.
But, I really cant help myself but
to use the computer.
I guess I can use, but just cut down.
:]

Today was really fun.
The teachers were really supportive.
Ouh, but we were VERYVERY HYPER.
I cant stand the noise.
But, sometimes, I am the noisemaker.
hehe.

we got lots of treats.
:D

okay, i go now.
Ciao!

Get well soon all you sick people!

Dear Diary,

Met up with Atiqah and Hani for awhile.
Ate at Popeye's.
Went arcade.
Back Home.

I really need to spend my time wisely.
I need to really start studying.
Or else, I will fail.

Any homework?
Hmm.

Dear Diary,

Today, I was late for school.
In fact, all 8 of us were late.
Haha. Good.

Both the papers were okay.
I did a mistake for Malay paper.
!!!
Never mind. What is done is done.

Went to Bk with adilarfan,dinie and Atiqah.
Lots of merepek-ness.

Hani, Dinie and Atiqah went back to my place.

We wanted to "study".
Well, I did. A little. :]
hehe.

And the fun starts.
They all made themselves at home.
Took food from the fridge and drawers.
Made drinks.
This is what you call, SELF SERVICE.

And all of a sudden,
the chairs were out of my room.
Space was being made and,
PILLOW FIGHT STARTED.
:DDDDDD

It was the Girl Guides vs Drama girls.
haha.
We had lots of fun.
Seeing your friends being beaten up.
Funny you know!
haha.

And the disease began,
I started sneezing and blowing my nose.
Then Atiqah followed by Dinie.
Wah lau! All of us were sick.
Except for Hani.

Eventhough we got sick,
I HAD LOTS AND LOTS OF FUN AND STUPID MPKMPK JOKES!

Dinie's voice sounds like gay.
haha.

Atiqah wanted to say bye to my brother when i already closed the door.
Atiqah: the bye was not meant for him.
Widad: It was for the door.
MPK!
okay, i need some rest.

Ciao people!

Dear Diary,

• We got our syf results : FREAKING C.O.P!
• Stupid judges.
• I'm still proud of us though.
• Stupid p.e 2.4!
• I just drank any kind of liquid found from people's cup.
• Thanks!
• I'm freaking tired.
• MYE first paper is FRIDAY!
• I should stop using the computer.
• But, I can't help myself.

Okay! I'm off suckers.

Good luck!

Dear Diary,

so i was upset yesterday.
Dunno why.

So FAIZ AND ROSHAN REALLY MADE ME HAPPY!
THANKS ALOT ALOT!!
Im really grateful to have friends like you people.

We all need someone To talk to in our life,
A friend to whom we run In times of stress or strife
A friend who's always there Throughout the years,
A friend we know will care
And take away our fears.
A friend who's always near,
Waiting for our call,
To wipe away our tears,
And lift us when we fall.
A loving friend indeed,
On whom we can depend
To fulfill our every need -
Thank you, precious friend


wahh I LIKE SIA!
ouh and roshan gave me really good advice.

And, today,
he kept on passing by my class and smilling.
and waving. and well...

you BOTH make me smile.
and faiz, if i was the emotional kind,
i would cry. haha.

widad : awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
widad : i hate you lah. you make me smille so much.. my cheek hurts
widad : hahah
widad : no lah
widad : I REALLY LOVE IT!
widad : im like over the moon.
widad: im wearing astranaut suit
Faiz : yayy. haha. gd (:
widad: mpk
widad:hahah
faiz: mpk2. bdk astronaut
faiz: haha


Okay. so today was.
kinda great actually.

I had lots of laughter.
Crapping with anyone basically.
Well, i smiled a lot today.
And im happy that i did.

Well, homework calls.
Ciao!

Your smile could heal a million souls.

Dear Diary,

Hello. Its been a long time I see.
Saturday was : DDD

I met up with Samihah.
After like maybe dunno how long already.
!!!
Its like when I saw her at the MRT,
was like as if i didn't know her.
Haha.

We're planning to wear the same thing
for Awatif's wedding.
:]]

Today was soso.
I was already crapping bullshits
early in the morning.
I was cursing and swearing during F&N.
Right darling hani?

We ordered pizza and nabil and muhammad
went through all the trouble.
Thanks alotalot.
:]

Hey darling.
I'm really sorry if i hurt you.
Well, I didnt even know that you were waiting outside.
and...
well I'm just sorry okay?
Please dont cry.

Well, exams are coming really soon.
Wish me luck!

Dear Diary,

I wish that times were back
to the good old days.

I miss all my 2e5 friends.
Reunion anyone?

I gave Atiqah a real BIG hug and kiss.
Was like suddenly she vanished.
haha.

I went home straight after school
Surprisingly.

I ordered MacDelivery.
Then I slept.

someone said this to me.

"To live a life i need heartbeat,
to have heartbeat i need a heart,
to have heart i need happiness,
to have happiness i need a friend, and for a friend i need U (:"


sweet right?
ya lah none other than..
bestie, faiz.

thanks man!

okay. I'm going off now suckers.

Goodbye.

Dear Diary,

I cried and cried all night. I could not stop.
I couldn't handle it anymore. I was just too stressed out.
I bottled up everything. All those tears have now been "released".
But still my problem(s) are not being said to anyone.
The problem is that everything is not okay.
I don't even know why i started crying. Every little thing or action people do annoys me.
I am sorry. I may look all happy outside.
But, inside I'm not really. I even made my mother cry.
I cannot see her cry. If she starts crying, I start crying too.
I need a hug. I need a strong person to tell me everything is alright.
See, now I'm crying again. The reality is that, there is no such person.
Someone prove me wrong. A lot of things are bothering me.
Family, Friends, School, homework,tests,cca. Well, its basically
everything. It's life basically. But no, I'm not so stupid to end it,
but, i;m going to get through this, with or without help.
Yes, I am not perfect. And I'm sure many hates me. Although,
I'm sure there is a kind soul out there that cares and loves me.
How i wish i could just escape from all of this. I need a break.
Oh god please help. Thank you.


I have stopped crying now.
But my problems are still here.

oh nvm forget it.

Today, early in the mornig,
crappy-ness has started,

rushed to school.
got ready everything.


OMG IT WAS GREAT!
I AM REALLY PROUD OF US!
ALL OF US DID A GREAT JOB.
SERIOUSLY.
I LOVE YOU ALL!

It was a really great experience.
OUR FRIST AND LAST!

Well eventhough we exceeded by two minutes..
Who cares?
Okay actually.. I do.
but, its over.
AND I AM PROUD OF ALL OF YOU!

GO DAMAI DRAMA!
WOOHHOOO!!

pizza after that was nice.
thanks teachers.

some faggot stole our chocolates.
yasmeen's birthday pressie also
got stolen. PIGASS!

ciao!

Dear Diary,

Two tests in a row,
makes me stress.

I feel so stupid for not studying.
Instead I slept yesterday night.

Oh well, what to do.
the test is over.

I have an interview tomorrow.
for NE dunno what.

After school was great.
I had fun laughing and laughing.
One joke after another.
we could pee in our pants right there.
right hani?

back home.

I started crying.
I couldn't stop it.
I dunno why i even started.
As I am writing now,
I am crying.
I went to my mother and cried at her lap.
She was saying her prayers.
Somehow, that cooled me down.

Then I started crying again.
I dunno why.
For no reason.

I feel stressed out with everything.

I think its just that period of time.
Its that phase.
you know?

I just hope that i don't screw up tomorrow.

Goodbye and Goodnight.

Dear Diary,

Today, I ate a lot for recess.
And after that I got stomach ache.
:[

I felt stupid during physics test.
There was a fcuking cockroach
the size of your thumb in my classroom
just now.
It was unsightly.
Almost all the girls screamed and ran.
Peiwen was brake enough to even try to catch it.
We made a lot of noise and caused
disturbance to the other classes.

Sorry.

Oral exam was .........
I really didn't know what to say.
Yeah can you believe it?
That i actually don't have much to say?

But while waiting, i really had lots of laughter.
It was all so NONSENSE!

Khairul/ Naufal: Eh, whats bayam in English?
All: Spinach.
Khairul/ naufal: no.. its not.. noo...
Amirul: Sallehuddin!

MAAKK!!! that was so... MEREPEK NAK MAMPOS!

Naufal: widad.. muke kau macam dadu! [ dice]
Naufal: soldadu

MAKK!!

okayokay.
drama was.. terrifying.
Two more days.

wish us luck!
ciao!

Dear Diary,

I really dont know what's happening
I'm lost.

I need your love.
Everyone's love.

Went to parkway with atiqah yesterday.
Lots of food were bought.

OUHOUH!
friday, sister was eating banana.
then she came up to me and ask me
whether i want small size banana.
when i looked at her plate,
the banana peel had a sticker on it.
the sticker has the letter "s".
haha. so it meant small banana.
MAAKK! mpk!

okayokay!
TESTS! HOMWOWRK!
jfhjhgjfgh!
stress.
i need food.

Ciao.

Dear Diary,

school today was -.-"
after school,
ate at PIZZA HUT!
yummy!

atiqah shopped like there is
no tomorrow.

i had one of the most MEREPEK
conversation just now with faiz.

Faiz: so long seh i nvr go onlyn
widad: ya lah
Faiz: so long i forgot how to type on my keyboard.
Faiz: mpk2. bdk kecian
widad:MAKKK!


widad: eh
widad: why you never go match?
Faiz: coz i want to talk to widad
Faiz: cehhh. mcm paham.
widad:hahaa
Faiz: dont want ah. lazy


Widad: eh
widad: can you like believe that..
widad: next year..
widad: were going to leave school
widad: and that..
Faiz: THATS WHY SEHH
Faiz: sedeh seh
widad: YA LAH!
widad: and then we will all part our own seperate ways.
widad:i hope not
widad:and then right..
widad: i dont like the fact that we are going to grduate with the sec 4 na this year,
widad: macam sibok jerr
Faiz: thats why laa.
Faiz: imagine us being separated. MAMPOS. confirm break down
widad:THATS WHY!!!!!!
widad: jfhgjigjkfjisfkfjkfkjgfjkjfjg
Faiz:..
widad: omg. i think im goign t be like so sad
widad: and this is not even the actual year
Faiz: thats why.
Faiz: even now i sad already seh thinking of next year
widad: ME TOO!


Faiz: wait eh deq
Faiz: eh deq pulak!
Faiz:hahahahaha
Faiz: wait ah widad.
widad: HAHAHHAHAAHH!!!


Faiz: TALK TO ME
Faiz: TELL ME UR NAME
Faiz: MPK2. WILLIAM hung sebok
widad:she bang she bangs!
widad:hahaha
Faiz: hahaha
Faiz: belo sah the face
widad:fcuk my leg cramp
widad:hahaha
Faiz:why?
Faiz: cramp kat ne? sembawang?
Faiz: mpk2. die igt camp
widad:HAHAHHAHAHHAA~!!!!
widad:omg
widad: so crap
widad: nono lobster
widad: nono i like prawn
widad:hahha
Faiz :haha
Faiz :MPK2.
Faiz: no no crab
widad: thats why.
faiz: mpk2. tk abes2
faiz:da basi tau
faiz:mpk2
widad:your friend what
widad:haha
faiz: no no squid.
faiz: mpk2. tk abes2
widad: octopus
widad:makk!!
faiz: no no seaweed
widad:seafood
widad:hhaha
faiz: mpk2. da lame da lame
faiz:haha

faiz: qiute late mah
widad: no lah
widad: dengar dengar *action* 1030 lambat
faiz: fuck u la
faiz: mpk2. tu pon nk maki
faiz: beh gado tau.
faiz: mpk2. da lame
widad: wah lau
widad: i was like shocked
faiz: haha

faiz: woof woof
faiz: mpk2. bdk boring
widad: hahhaa
widad: meow
faiz:b waalaikumsalam
faiz: mpk2. sala jawab
widad: AHAHAHAHAHA
faiz: haha
faiz: are u seriously laughing?
faiz: coz i can hear ur laughter frm here.
widad: ya lah beylo
widad: hahaha
widad: bedek ah
faiz:mpk2. seram. tlinge tikos
widad:HAHAHAAHHAA


faiz: mpk2. jealous tau. beh buno diri
faiz: mpk2. da lame
widad: hhahah
widad: bunuh ah.
faiz: haha.
faiz: fine ah.
widad: i dont want to see you
faiz: mpk2. beh btol2 tau
widad: haha

widad: go sleep
faiz: okay2.
widad: bye
faiz: no no jellyfish.
widad: huh?
faiz: mpk2. the talk abt seafood da bes tau. tap continue
widad:mpk!
widad: shark
faiz: mpk2. tka bes


okay. that was fun.
now im tired.
goodnight.

Dear Diary,

Today, my whole body ached.
And Mrs Loke came.
Roshan bought for me food when Muhammad didn't.
Now, that's a first. Thanks.

Someone made a taik (shit) face just now.
Character also like taik.
HAHA. omg i am so bad.

I found out that Mr Zaid was born in Nepal.
Exams are around the corner.
I have not even started studying anything.

SYF is this coming Wednesday,
I don't have lessons for the whole day
:D

I crapped a lot today with Nadiah today after school.
Its was fun!

I miss my bestfriends somehow.

I love you all!
Bye.

Dear Diary,

Yesterday I had lots of fun during CME.
we played lots of games :D


And because of yesterday's post, Syaz;Girlfriend,
made me this.


okay if you cant see it, i shall type it out.

Widad; BOYFRIEND! (:

i may not be the very best person to tell you this but
i just cant read and not do anything ; and what
are girlfriends for right? dear boyfriend, you
are NOT a failure or neither a stupid girl!No, you
ARE NOT! how can you say that?! it's indirectly
hurting me tau! so, do not say such words okay?
and if you ever need a hug, I'm always here.I'm a
HUGGER! (:


and she put a picture of c.ronaldo with a bubble saying,
"i love widad"
hahaha.
fat chance.

hahha
but thanks anyways.
I WAS REALLY HAPPY ! REALLY I SWEAR!

i couldn't stop smiling.
and if i were those kind of people who could cry out of
happiness, i would.

oh ya! and she gave me chocolate ! :D

THANKS SYAZWANI! I REALLY LOVE YOU MAN!
YOU REALLY CHEERED ME UP.


but still i was a little angry for nothing at other people.
stop bullshitting can you?
I'm just giving you advice.
and those actions of yours,
are really fcuking me up.
:D

Thanks to those who try to make me smile.
And congrats to those who manage to.
Sorry bestfriend 1 for not layaning you.

Its so beautiful when the boy smiles.
Yes its you boy.

Ciao!

Dear diary,

I feel so drained out.
I don't get enough sleep.
I wish that one day i can just sleep all day.
Well maybe not all day.

Everyone's actions now affect me.
I get angry easily.
Only some people manage to make me happy.
and its not every time that they do.

I really need a short break.
All the exams starting soon.
And I have not even started studying.

Oh god Widad, what are you thinking.
I always feel determined to study.
But I am always lazy.
And I have to.
I know that if I continue to be like this,
I will fail.

I'm a failure.
I'm a stupid girl.
Yes I am.

I have a problem.
But the problem is,
I don't know what's the problem.

jsfnghfgjlfhglhfgkflghi!!!!!!

I need a hug.
Care to give me one?
Anyone?

Okay I'll stop blabbering now.
Goodbye Fuckrella and Fuckerfella's!

NEW SKIN!
and SONG.
enjoy?
hahaa.

sorry dinie.. i couldnt follow you.
sorry tau!
i scared my dad scold if i ask again.

I thought I saw a man brought to life
he was warm he came around like he was dignified
he showed me what it was to cry
Well you couldn't be that man I adored
you don't seem to know - or seem to care what your heart is for
I don't know him anymore
there's nothing where he used to lie
my conversation has run dry
that's what's goin' on
nothing's fine
I'm torn
I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
lying naked on the floor
illusion never changed
into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
you're a little late
I'm already torn

so I guess the fortune teller's right
I should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
but you `crawled beneath my veins and now I don't care, I have
no luck
I don't miss it all that much
there's just so many things
that I can't touch
I'm torn
[chorus]
there's nothing where he used to lie
my inspiration has run dry
that's what's goin' on
nothing's right I'm torn...
[chorus]

okay i dunno if the lyrics right.
hahah

shit homework! fcuk!
fgushfkghlfd!!!

BYE BEYLOS!

WOWWEE!
funfunfun.

yesterday..
went to sentosa with some friends.
had fun :D
laughing gas was like !!!! hahhaa!!!!!

hani im glad your fine.

SATURDAY!

i woke up at 0730 when im supposed to
reach tampines library at 0745!
haha.
so me and farah we went around tampines for flag day.
then we went to kembangan.
ate at rahimah!
whee..
got alotalot of money.

i got $10 form someone!
woohoo!

we were like pathetic idiots saying
"excuse me would you like to donate?"

haha. omg! some chinese man..
gave farah a donation lah.
then.. he went away and..
took a picture of us lah.
so we just smiled.

then he asked me to take a picture of him
and farah.
so i took.

then he walk walk around us..
then. he went insaide the mrt.
like as in tapped his card.

so that was 1150.
me and farah still waited at the same place lah
until 1215.
and at 1215..
when we were at the train..
HE WAS STILL THERE!!!!
OMG!!!

then he came to me..
and asked me..
whether.. we want to have lunch with him
at HIS HOUSE!!
OMG!! FREAKY WEIRDO!!!!!
hflihglihgskfhilgf!!!

okay so anyways..
we went back to tampines
and off to east coast.
:DDDD
so fun.
we all went bowling.
was so fun.

so of us are pro's
not me :[
haha. im longkang girl.
hahahha.

I HAD LOTS OF FUN AND LAUGHTER.
THANKS ALL!

we should do it more often :D


dear friend. all this information is
a little too much.
well, but i will keep it a secret.
:D.

okay im being scolded.
BYE!
i shall post pictures next time.
i think.

Wednesday are really tiring.

Alot of drama happened today.
So after drama rehearsals,
me,atiqah and nadiah
RAN down to the field to watch the
soccer match between the sec 3's and sec 4's.

and to our dissappointment, there match was stopped.
something happened.
and it was scary to see the guys angry.
it was also saddening.
we were all angry.

oh well. good luck.

Its been so long since we talked.
I need updates man!
yes maybe after all the drama,
you wont want to talk.

oh well never mind.

i love my friends.
no matter how irritating they are.

So i hope somehow i get to watch the match tomorrow.

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY SYAZWANI!

Today is really tiring.
I dunno why.
Well, maybe its due to the lack
of sleep for the past two weeks or so.

I HAVE TWO NEW GIRLFRIENDS!
NURUL & SYAZ!
:DDD

During maths, we went to the computer lab.
And, i sat beside my girlfriend, syaz.
and we were like crapping in malay again.

and in the lab..
hani: eh bising lah!
Jia Ji: *makes wierd cookie monster and mr bean sound*

FUNNY LAH!

Then during CME,
the netballer went out aledy lah.
then me and fiqa went to the toilet.
ran down to the first floor to meet syaz.
i hugged syaz and fiqa put black paint on her face.
then we quickly ran up and went to the toilet.
by then we were sweating like pigs.
okay exagerrating.
haha.

well today is tiring but fun

psst! I LOVE MY FRIENDS!
well at least most of them.
:D

SUNDAY WAS FUN!

APRIL FOOLS IT WAS,
so i decided to play a prank on my friends.

My sms was:
Dear my beloved friends. I was just admitted to the hospital
due to the lack of sugar in my body.
I passed out this morning and was
quickly rushed to changi general hospital.
Therefore, i wont be coming to school tomorrow.
If you would like to visit me .. Just give me a ring.
Love you guys lots. Muah !

haha!
and people replied this.

Hassan: This is not an April fool's joke is it?

Syazwani: 1)widad. it better be true and NOT an April fool's joke OKAY!
2) hahaa. WIDAD-DI is so merepek. At first i thought it was real lah.
I was thinking of going and thinking of who i want to go with. when
i checked the calender, it was 1st April. April fools day -.-

Farah: 1)omfg. Are you okay?
2) your so mean la.

Jannah: Fuck u! is it real or April fool?!

Soleha: Nice April fool joke red hulk.. haha.. good one. but i ain't falling for it.

Nurul: WIDAD! get well soon! make sure you eat alot alot :-)

Atiqah: Oh my gaah.. you were just messaging me a while ago. when can visit you?

Roshan:1) haha good try happy April fool day.
2) haha duh my bestfriend where got so weak.

Nadiah: [ she smsed me only after the next day!]
Omg i thought you really were in the hospital. then i thought it was April
fools then i thought duck you.and thought if it really happens and thought
widad is nuts if really happen how? then i thought widad really doesn't
think and i do MPk2. okok i was damn panic. damn you ductard, hehe.
okay love you and don't ever faint eat eat eat alot.

I COULDNT STOP laghing man. well if you were hurt sorry eh.

went to farah's house.
bought lots of snacks .
it was fun you know.
we did our project that is
supposed to be handed in the next day.

GOOD!

me and farah stuffed marshmallows in our mouths.
we managed to stuff only four.
hani was like missing half of the time.
okay not really.
all in all it was a great day. :D

Monday will always be a tiring day.
the presentation went quite well.
mr cheah got angry just now.
kinda scary.

me and syaz was like talking in bahasa melayu baku.
hhahah. funny lah. we were trying so hard.

to my dear friend, i will always love you.

BRING STUFFS TOMORROW!
BIRTHDAY GIRL!! WATCH OUT!
i guess.